Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and end with a teardrops.

Hey peeps, i found tat whenever u feel unhappy, lost, moody maybe u can try this..

i just tried out in this early morning.. i drove out without any direction, juz keep move forward n forward, with full tank of petrol, with some old school songs, with a brain tat full of some random thoughts, need not to bother everything, but until i reached somewhere else tat i really couldnt move forward juz make a u-turn then finally i reached my destination tats wat a place i never never think to reach there..while driving, i think a lot, this is juz a truth same as wat we will go thru when we r growing up, ya, it seems work and it really comfort me a lot, coz i dun wanna keep complain with my frens, i feel like cooling down alone..

Or maybe can try to watch movie alone, maybe its help.. tats wat my BFF said to me..i will try it somedays or maybe soon..

but it will become worst when u r alone at night, keep awake in the middle of night, not becoz of cnt sleep well, sometimes maybe will keep awake by some stupid nightmares, this feeling is the worst moment tat i have to pass thru..god bless me anyway..

i was wondering this few days, if he never did tat to me, maybe i will pass his birthday with him, but it d become the truth, i cnt do anything anymore, he d get wat he wants, wat i do for him he wont be bother anymore.. i guess if now i m standing in front of him, he oso cnt see me..he always say tat he love me more than anything, so now izzit the way he prove to me or showing tat he love me , wat a bullshit! so the answer is i m too naive to believe..i always say tat love cnt juz say thru by mouth, but too bad he cnt absorb wat i said.. he knew wat i said to him was not really wat i thought, girls r like tat wat, but y he want to hurt me again n againn again! i m not as strong as wat he thought okay, i will oso get collapse u know.. i never say doesnt means i dnt care, actually i very mind tat wat he've done.. its not fair, maybe its fair to her but not me.. but anyway, this feeling is worst than break up with someone or anything he've done.. i will try my very best to forget, coz i d promise someone, hope tat i really can do it~

a night with my family..

exhausted n tired week, although is my semester break, but it seems like everything goes wrong in this week.. i did tried to call my frens out but all seems like busy working or studying.. so end up i did nothing in this week..

today is my last day n have to work hard for tomorrow onwards, hopefully everything will go smoothly. now i really wanna free myself from the condition of doubt 1st ,and hopefully i can adapt myself very very soon, anyway cheers to myself!

珍惜对你凶的女孩

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子在冲他们发火后自己转过身却在不断啜泣。 

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子从来不会真正去生他们的气，因为她是真的喜欢他在乎他。 

其实很多男孩子都不知道，女孩子只会对自己喜欢的男生唠唠叨叨，也只会对自己喜欢的人耍性子。 


你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会来在乎你关心你，怕你做错事情。 

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，她根本不会对你发火不会冲你撒娇让你哄她， 

在别人面前她都是淑女。 

你要知道，假若她不喜欢你，你根本就没有本事让她哭泣，让她即使生气也 不会超过2天。 


这一切都只是因为她喜欢你，而这一切都因为你还不够在意她不够懂她。 

于是，你们时常争吵，你认为她脾气不好，她认为你不够迁就她。 

于是，你们总是冷战，你以为她不喜欢你，她以为你不在乎她。 

于是，你们总是莫名其妙的彼此错过，也许擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤着 的无奈与幸福。 

要知道，凄美依然是美的一种，并且美的绚丽悲凉而沧桑，那是更加的美。 

因为她喜欢你，所以她偶尔冲你发火，时常对你撒娇。 

因为她喜欢你，所以她才会生你的气；而又因为喜欢你，她才不会去生气很 久。 

你可知道，每个女孩子的心都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透，但是很容易就碰伤摔 碎。 

你可知道，每个女孩子都是不设防的，你那么轻易就闯进她的心，走的时候 却只留下伤害。 


她从来都不知道，这个世界上根本没有可以让她哭的人，因为真正值得她哭 的那个根本舍不得让她哭。 

她会很矜持，她会很骄傲，她会很冷淡，她总是嘴里说着你走开，心里却一 直叫你留下。请你张开你的耳朵，也请你打开你的心，去听她心里真正的呼唤，而不是她嘴里的口是心非。 

她会看着你转身，然后她跟着你转身，当侧身而过的时候，你看不见她的泪，滂沱在脸上心里。 

如果你喜欢她，请你多陪她；如果你喜欢她，请你多宠她；如果你喜欢她， 请你多让她。 

如果你喜欢她，请你去听听她内心的声音，那是呐喊——请拥抱她。 


在爱情里，总是彼此伤害，彷佛这样才能证明自己爱得激烈爱到轰轰烈烈。 

可是，爱情里没有孰对孰错；爱情里更加没有你比我多我比你少。 

你爱她，她爱你，如此就已经足够。不要试图让彼此的伤害，让彼此更加脆 弱悲伤。 


你们彼此相爱，你们需要的是温暖是幸福是甜蜜是快乐，不是伤害。 


不要用沉默宣战，不要互不相让，更不要什么话都不讲就冷漠离去。 


要知道，你离去的时候，你的眼睛起了雾，她的眼角泛着泪光。 


越是安静战火就越传，这是冷战也是彼此的伤害——无论是怎么的复合，那 些伤口曾经存在，抹不去。 


请跟她一个拥抱，用你的拥抱去化解她心里的悲伤与眼角的泪水。 

她喜欢你，她绝对不会拒绝你的拥抱，她只会害怕你的冷漠转身无声安静。 

请记住，相爱的人不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。 也 请记住，只要你喜欢她，没有什么是你接受不了的，只要你喜欢她，就喜欢 她的一切一切。 


那么她所有的小性子所有的坏脾气所有的臭毛病，在你眼里都是撒娇。 


也请记住，她喜欢你，她需要的不是你真的转身，她嘴里说着的也不是她的 真心话。 

她只是想你宠她，想你抱她，哪怕，没有道歉..

is tat a fact tat i have to accept..

i d told myself on the very beginning, y i m still so naive to believe.

love cnt just say thru by mouth, did u ever take action, or maybe u just think for another way to solve it. like now? who knows..

do u ever know tat every single words u told me now d become somehow call fake. maybe u never feel tat coz love is spinning all around ur head now.. a week b4 u wrote tat how u love a girl, mention tat u really can fall into her, wth within a week u couple with another gal, it's ridiculous u know..

To be frank, i never find u coz i wan u to know, i hope after u left me u will study hard, work hard, find out the route u suppose to go thru, escape ur so call life now, i wish u can find a better one after u success tats y i choose to leave, but i m wrong, u will never understand wat i did is good for u anyway. 

if i got chance to meet this guy again, i willing to ask him, ''Do u know what is really call love?''

24/2/2010

Our beloved lecturer in MIA..

gonna miss him much n miss the moment had lunch n talking crap with him..

without him our college is really really quiet..

MR EEEEE, WE MISS U AR!!!!!!!

Praying for miracle to u~

Dear hong:

I knew tat an unfortunate accident happened on u, we were so worry abt u..

when i visited u in hospital with bowie, i really can feel the heartbroken, i really cnt believe tats u in front of me..

Recalled bak last time u at school, can walk, jump, crap n ponteng, miss the laughter u had brought us, really miss it.. sometimes i really hope this was a dream, wake up the second day n like ntg happened:(

altough i not close with u but  i dun wanna lose a friend like u u know, so plz be tough be strong, all ur friends are waiting u, praying hard for u, dnt give up so easily..I know u can do it, i wan u to wake up n as active as last time, so plz, dnt give up, no matter wat happen, we'll always beside u to support u!!

I feel very tired to argue with u..

and i m pretty sick now tats y i choose to be silent, as for u, u juz think tat i didnt care u  at all..

y dnt u stand at my situation n think..

n i really really tired now, when this morning christine arranged my phone calender for remind me to do assignments, no much time left, i d feel like fainting.. it was really really scary..from now on till 6th of february my day is really really full of WORK..

i hope tat u can understand me n hopefully u try to help me not to bring me trouble..

my best friends.^^

christine> a girl tat taught me a lot of stuff, funny stuff, bad  stuff, so on.. haha, actually i learnt quite a lot of things from her on my study..

she's the only 1 in my life tat force her bf to accom me to watch horror & ghost movie with her..

i appreaciate a lot..since most of my fren when come to watch this kind of movie will be hiding at home.. she like to pinch me all the time in class, all over my face, arms, legs, tats y i become so fat.. we always hang out to eat nice food, shopping, play n goof around, outside, anywhere..

4th of january at my college, chrystal + christine fault..

make my car like snow wash, n laughing non stop in my car..funny la them..

Bowie> this girl ntg much to mention la, as my fren all will know her.. she my best friend tat will never never leave me alone.. even we r not in the same skul since secondary till now, u r always listed as my best friend..never change. This will be my only girl tat understand wat m i thinking, explain to me which is the right route for me, tried to intro lots of guys to me as i m not interested even 1, haha.. i appreaciate this friendship tat will last forever..miss her badly!!

am i falling with love again?

Yes? No?

i oso dunno..

i tot single is the best for me, but den when i saw bowie , christine them i feel somehow jealousy..

i scare get betrayed again, scare to fall in love again, scare scare scare..

m i tat bad? or izzit my problem tat i not really mix with crowds?

actually as i told bowie, i m not interested with him in the very beginning, n i oso not knowing him tat long, talk oso not until 10 words..but, when i saw him talked to the girl tat time, i can feel tat kind of comfortable, dunno y.. really, he really freaked me up this few days..

i just remembered when i told bowie was him , she really laugh like hell, maybe, if i tell others, maybe the situation will be same too, imagining=.=hmmmmmm..

btw, this will be my very busy month, cnt even sit down to take a breath or rest..

7.30am wake up driving to college, after class straightaway start my work until 10pm, come bak take bath, facebook, do work until i fall asleep..

even though i were busy wth my work, i still will take out my phone online to check his facebook, update his news for myself, so obviously the feeling is growing secretly day by day, but no one knows.. but i know what m i doin, i m not goin to involve myself in their complicated relationship, i dun wanna to make him stress, tats what i hope..

but i think christine will be the 1 who suffer a lot, coz i goin to meet her everyday in college, i nid her to be my listener badly, always, hahaha, pity her sometimes..

seriously i miss him badly too, hope he doin well there anyway..

pulau tioman december holiday!!

tioman trip with my family..

cnt wait to the bangkok trip with my babe bowie, stan & liam..

anyway, i m here to wish myself n all my lovely babes a MERRY CHRISTMAS & CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

The details of genting trip with college peeps..

had a memorable & wonderful moment with them..i really appreciate a lot..

it was 5th of december (sat), the day after our sem 5 mid term assesment..

We decided n planned few months ago for this trip, it was our 1st class trip, but too bad chrystal wasnt there, she went honeymoon with her bf, hehe.. btw, we miss her a lot, it will be more fun if she was there.. n jesse too, if she was there, siew teng would'nt be so shy,( i think so)..^^

Anyway, christine n i arrived college around 8 am in the morning, Ee was late bcoz of some stupid security guard at sharon n min min apartment.. 

when all arrived, we devided into 2 cars, Ah wu, sharon, me, christine, yiki, zhiwen, catherine, siew teng, sugus & wanie crammed into a estima while Ee, min min, ah see, kenji, darren into a vios n started our journey with 2 walkie talkie..

Firstly, we had our breakfast nearby our college few shop nearby westar, & bought some stuff at 7E, we stopped at shell from some junks & sweets too..

After arrived our creepy ria apartment, we waited outside while the rest went to check in.. we had some fun out there too, example like christine teased with Ee boxer, talked crap with the walkie talkie, heavy christine stepped on my feet while she disturbed yiki, sugus, & zhi wen taking photo... & so on..

After tat we decided to go for themepark while the check in time is 2pm, we were too early for tat.. when we reached up there, it was too misty for us to play outdoor themepark, so we decided to go for indoor maybe we will have some fun in there..firstly, kenji & ah see was trying for the rock climb n following by sugus.. Ee, ah wu, sharon, min min, yiki, zhi wen, siew teng, catherine, darren went for bowling while the rest of us went for archery..

Christine was there messaging justin for the whether updated outside, i think she felt excited to go for outdoor coz justin was out there, she went table to table just for informing others of the whether outside, can see how excited she was, but me too, we just scared if we not going, the whether will be worst on the nxt day although was d 3pm..

Finally we suggested tat guys will be goin down to check in while the girls can enjoy our outdoor themepark while waiting those guys coming up.. we had the pirate ship for our 1st ride, really funny for christine & siew teng expression, i really regretted for didnt buy the pic tat cost rm30..

We had some fun for taking pics while having a long queue at the roller coaster there, after tat we met with the guys when they had done with thier stuff.. we met justin out there at the bumper boat there but too bad he had to go early.. while waiting the rest for playing the solero, we had some fun down there like taking pics with the energizer look behind, having fun with christine broken sunglases..

B4 we went bak, we had a few rides at the pirate ship n i tried to win the pink seahorse but failed, the rest won a big teddy bear, cow small teddy but i had none=.='' i swear im bad luck for playing those stuff..

Then we left outdoor n heading to our apartment, on the way back , i were scared by a boy jumping down for the stairs with the creepy funny sound.. n following by catherine n christine, haha...

When we reach our room, at first i drag christine to have a look at the toilet 1st n following by the room..then we girls taken our bath 2 by 2 in the master room while the guys preparing steamboat in the kitchen..while we taken bath halfway, sudd sugus came in n said be carefull, she really scared me of tat but they dnt plan to tell me anything.. btw i knew smtg happenned bcoz sugus n siew teng was taking bath alone at the toilet outside..

After we had our steamboat dinner, we enjoyed the chivas tat bought by Ee while we playing the assassin n the polis.. around 1pm, christine n i decided to sleep, so tat we drag min min n catherine to sleep since sharon d slept like pig inside, haha.. the guys still enjoying the steamboat outside for thier second round.. the rest of girls decided to sleep in the living room..

The next morning, we decided to had another curry steamboat made by Ee coz still got some leftover food.. after had our breakfast, packed our stuff, we went up to 1st world again, we walked seperately,  i accom wanie n christine for their breakfast, after shop, we went to startbucks to meet up with them..

Around 3 pm, we went bak n gathered at our college went bak home happily..

Seriously i really miss them a lot, i m wondering hows the life after we graduate n oso when Ee left us..

Anyway, thanks for Ee, ah wu, sharon for making the plan works, Ee, kenji, ah see, darren n wanie for the food, and the rest for making noise n fun there, perhaps i did cherish a lot n every moment with them..^.~''

all of us..

christine noob face..

the energizer look

with christine teddy bear..

our steamboat..

sharon, me, min min & christine..

hang out together with my classmates when we juz started our new sem..

had dinner at wanie restoran, enjoyed with them..

photoshooting..

i feel somehow very sad..

feel tat single sometimes just will implicate others, my friends..

juz hope tat this nightmare can go away..

a lots of things for me to worry abt when i m growing up..

btw, this is the fact ..

hope tat the coming new semester do help me to solve this problem..

just to worry abt my study, not others..

genting trips with the gang

hmmmm, feel so boring ntg to do at home..