I feel very tired to argue with u..

and i m pretty sick now tats y i choose to be silent, as for u, u juz think tat i didnt care u  at all..

y dnt u stand at my situation n think..

n i really really tired now, when this morning christine arranged my phone calender for remind me to do assignments, no much time left, i d feel like fainting.. it was really really scary..from now on till 6th of february my day is really really full of WORK..

i hope tat u can understand me n hopefully u try to help me not to bring me trouble..

my best friends.^^

christine> a girl tat taught me a lot of stuff, funny stuff, bad  stuff, so on.. haha, actually i learnt quite a lot of things from her on my study..

she's the only 1 in my life tat force her bf to accom me to watch horror & ghost movie with her..

i appreaciate a lot..since most of my fren when come to watch this kind of movie will be hiding at home.. she like to pinch me all the time in class, all over my face, arms, legs, tats y i become so fat.. we always hang out to eat nice food, shopping, play n goof around, outside, anywhere..

4th of january at my college, chrystal + christine fault..

make my car like snow wash, n laughing non stop in my car..funny la them..

Bowie> this girl ntg much to mention la, as my fren all will know her.. she my best friend tat will never never leave me alone.. even we r not in the same skul since secondary till now, u r always listed as my best friend..never change. This will be my only girl tat understand wat m i thinking, explain to me which is the right route for me, tried to intro lots of guys to me as i m not interested even 1, haha.. i appreaciate this friendship tat will last forever..miss her badly!!

am i falling with love again?

Yes? No?

i oso dunno..

i tot single is the best for me, but den when i saw bowie , christine them i feel somehow jealousy..

i scare get betrayed again, scare to fall in love again, scare scare scare..

m i tat bad? or izzit my problem tat i not really mix with crowds?

actually as i told bowie, i m not interested with him in the very beginning, n i oso not knowing him tat long, talk oso not until 10 words..but, when i saw him talked to the girl tat time, i can feel tat kind of comfortable, dunno y.. really, he really freaked me up this few days..

i just remembered when i told bowie was him , she really laugh like hell, maybe, if i tell others, maybe the situation will be same too, imagining=.=hmmmmmm..

btw, this will be my very busy month, cnt even sit down to take a breath or rest..

7.30am wake up driving to college, after class straightaway start my work until 10pm, come bak take bath, facebook, do work until i fall asleep..

even though i were busy wth my work, i still will take out my phone online to check his facebook, update his news for myself, so obviously the feeling is growing secretly day by day, but no one knows.. but i know what m i doin, i m not goin to involve myself in their complicated relationship, i dun wanna to make him stress, tats what i hope..

but i think christine will be the 1 who suffer a lot, coz i goin to meet her everyday in college, i nid her to be my listener badly, always, hahaha, pity her sometimes..

seriously i miss him badly too, hope he doin well there anyway..